This BLOG is dedicated to Jesus Christ whom I try to faithfully serve. My original intention for writing here, was to be a voice for the King, to anyone interested in seeing God's hand in the development of this ministry. And I've tried to follow this guideline of my original intentions. Yet today, I have an overflowing of thoughts and experience, that I believe is of more value, than anything I've written.
And my story relates to making a choice to live with the King Jesus, or to deceive oneself with feelings and emotions from the heart. The Bible says this about our hearts; "The heart is deceitful above all things and desperately wicked." So when you live for what you feel and not what God says in the Bible, you are susceptible to making huge mistakes. Obviously I've played the fool at times on my journey through life, but God's divine hand of physical discipline (Perfect timing of pain in my life), and the conviction of my conscience has been a blessing to steer me straight. Reading the Bible has been the major component of developing a Conscience for the mistakes I've made. What the world can't see, is the change in a persons heart and more personally mine, which the Lord can accomplish through his gift of the Holy Spirit. Everyone's heart has the potential for God's love to fill their hearts, when they surrender their will to God, by at least trying to listen to the Word of the Bible.
So the Holy Spirit is the Good news about the Bible, and a gift of this is; "May you experience the love of God, though it is so great you will never fully understand it, but then you will be filled with the life and power that comes from God" The Holy Spirit is a promise from the Bible to those who seek it by faith, with his love being a part of it. In all actuality God is love. The Bible says; "God is love and all who live in God, live in love" The other part of the promise is that you will also be baptized with Fire! John the Baptist said this about Jesus; There is one mightier than me who's sandals I am not worthy to untie, he will Baptize you with the Holy Spirit and Fire".
Well today is a bittersweet day for me. God has removed the Fire from my life. It pains me to say that my wife of the past 7 years has decided to live for herself. She is a wonderful person, but incapable of being a wife according to God's will. I have no harsh words for her, only that she refused the Lord's Truth in our marriage. Only the people you love can really hurt you deeply, and I am guilty of it as well. The difference between us, is that I was able to forgive her actions through Christ and she couldn't forgive my frustration with her contentiousness, which could of been avoided if we both submitted to Jesus. I am grateful for her having been in my life, as she was the Fire that molded me to become a better person. I use to swear, when my buttons were pushed, and when i thought something was unfair. I can truly say that through her contentions, i became spiritually strong in controlling my emotions and words. I thank God for her, and am sad that she can't let go of the past. This part of the story brings me to the unfolding of a monumental truth, for those who can receive it.
A relationship with God, can be mirrored to a marriage. People say they have God, when they go to the building or a structure. But the Bible says God doesn't live in the building; "God that made the world and all things in this, lives not in buildings made by mans hand." Church is the Body of believers together. More importantly is that God wants a personal, intimate relationship with us. This is achieved when we seek him, praise him, listen to him, worship him, share our thoughts and feelings with him. The number one commandment is to; "love the Lord with all your heart, strength, and mind". So just because you go to the building, doesn't really mean anything, if your heart isn't right (In touch) with God. And in a marriage when one party just shows up at the home, day after day, without a desire for fellowship, and friendship and intimacy, then it really isn't a marriage anymore.
I never fully understood the Scripture that says;If an unbelieving person departs, let them depart, a brother or sister is no longer in marriage, for we have been called to peace".
However this has been crystal clear, on what has unfolded in my life today.
So even though I'm sorta heart broke, I must trust the Lord in what has happened in my life. And to be completely real, my soon to be former wife, had little to no respect for the ministry I've been called to serve. I gave her grace on ignoring this, but her actions of coming home with no love, prompted me to address the situation, which has brought me to being a single man again. But i will not compromise what I believe God wants me to do. So when i saw her disenchantment of my service and love, for the Lord, I addressed it. Even though I will always love the woman who was a blessing to be with, even though torturous at times. But failing God in this ministry is not an option. I tried my best to love her as Christ loved me, but she was unable to receive it, because she chose to let her feelings and emotions be the driving force in her life, instead of trusting God's word, by a accepting and surrendering to his will. I know how hard this can be to implement, so I do forgive her unconditionally.
With all that said, I hope my honesty can touch one couple, that will make the decision to put God, in the forefront of their lives. It takes more than going to the home, to make a marriage. It takes Love; Love is patient and kind, love is not jealous boastful , proud or rude, Love does not demand or insist on its own way. Love is not resentful or irritable. It keeps no record of wrong, and rejoices when truth wins out. Love never gives up, endures all things and is hopeful in all situations.
And I challenge everyone, who thinks they have God, to ask themselves, if this is due to a visit to the building, or is it because they have a personal loving relationship with Jesus Christ. How do you get faith one might ask; "Faith comes from listening to the Good news, the Good news about Christ"
And my story relates to making a choice to live with the King Jesus, or to deceive oneself with feelings and emotions from the heart. The Bible says this about our hearts; "The heart is deceitful above all things and desperately wicked." So when you live for what you feel and not what God says in the Bible, you are susceptible to making huge mistakes. Obviously I've played the fool at times on my journey through life, but God's divine hand of physical discipline (Perfect timing of pain in my life), and the conviction of my conscience has been a blessing to steer me straight. Reading the Bible has been the major component of developing a Conscience for the mistakes I've made. What the world can't see, is the change in a persons heart and more personally mine, which the Lord can accomplish through his gift of the Holy Spirit. Everyone's heart has the potential for God's love to fill their hearts, when they surrender their will to God, by at least trying to listen to the Word of the Bible.
So the Holy Spirit is the Good news about the Bible, and a gift of this is; "May you experience the love of God, though it is so great you will never fully understand it, but then you will be filled with the life and power that comes from God" The Holy Spirit is a promise from the Bible to those who seek it by faith, with his love being a part of it. In all actuality God is love. The Bible says; "God is love and all who live in God, live in love" The other part of the promise is that you will also be baptized with Fire! John the Baptist said this about Jesus; There is one mightier than me who's sandals I am not worthy to untie, he will Baptize you with the Holy Spirit and Fire".
Well today is a bittersweet day for me. God has removed the Fire from my life. It pains me to say that my wife of the past 7 years has decided to live for herself. She is a wonderful person, but incapable of being a wife according to God's will. I have no harsh words for her, only that she refused the Lord's Truth in our marriage. Only the people you love can really hurt you deeply, and I am guilty of it as well. The difference between us, is that I was able to forgive her actions through Christ and she couldn't forgive my frustration with her contentiousness, which could of been avoided if we both submitted to Jesus. I am grateful for her having been in my life, as she was the Fire that molded me to become a better person. I use to swear, when my buttons were pushed, and when i thought something was unfair. I can truly say that through her contentions, i became spiritually strong in controlling my emotions and words. I thank God for her, and am sad that she can't let go of the past. This part of the story brings me to the unfolding of a monumental truth, for those who can receive it.
A relationship with God, can be mirrored to a marriage. People say they have God, when they go to the building or a structure. But the Bible says God doesn't live in the building; "God that made the world and all things in this, lives not in buildings made by mans hand." Church is the Body of believers together. More importantly is that God wants a personal, intimate relationship with us. This is achieved when we seek him, praise him, listen to him, worship him, share our thoughts and feelings with him. The number one commandment is to; "love the Lord with all your heart, strength, and mind". So just because you go to the building, doesn't really mean anything, if your heart isn't right (In touch) with God. And in a marriage when one party just shows up at the home, day after day, without a desire for fellowship, and friendship and intimacy, then it really isn't a marriage anymore.
I never fully understood the Scripture that says;If an unbelieving person departs, let them depart, a brother or sister is no longer in marriage, for we have been called to peace".
However this has been crystal clear, on what has unfolded in my life today.
So even though I'm sorta heart broke, I must trust the Lord in what has happened in my life. And to be completely real, my soon to be former wife, had little to no respect for the ministry I've been called to serve. I gave her grace on ignoring this, but her actions of coming home with no love, prompted me to address the situation, which has brought me to being a single man again. But i will not compromise what I believe God wants me to do. So when i saw her disenchantment of my service and love, for the Lord, I addressed it. Even though I will always love the woman who was a blessing to be with, even though torturous at times. But failing God in this ministry is not an option. I tried my best to love her as Christ loved me, but she was unable to receive it, because she chose to let her feelings and emotions be the driving force in her life, instead of trusting God's word, by a accepting and surrendering to his will. I know how hard this can be to implement, so I do forgive her unconditionally.
With all that said, I hope my honesty can touch one couple, that will make the decision to put God, in the forefront of their lives. It takes more than going to the home, to make a marriage. It takes Love; Love is patient and kind, love is not jealous boastful , proud or rude, Love does not demand or insist on its own way. Love is not resentful or irritable. It keeps no record of wrong, and rejoices when truth wins out. Love never gives up, endures all things and is hopeful in all situations.
And I challenge everyone, who thinks they have God, to ask themselves, if this is due to a visit to the building, or is it because they have a personal loving relationship with Jesus Christ. How do you get faith one might ask; "Faith comes from listening to the Good news, the Good news about Christ"
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