If you read my last entry on the Blog, you would know that recently my wife of the past 7 years has decided to end our marriage. This event was the fire in my life, because I loved her, and was committed to the idea of living our lives together, until the end. I'm against slamming people, especially a woman who tried her best to be good to me, however certain elements of our relationship need to be revealed, in order to potentially bless someone who has come across this blog. The events that have transpired after her decision for divorce, are truly amazing to me and have a significant impact on the progression of this Ministry. Its also on my heart today, to share God's hand during this trial of my life, and the lessons I've learned  from this experience.
             Obviously i asked God why this horrible event was happening to me, and what could i have done to prevent it, and was there anything i could do to fix it. Long story short, no I couldn't fix it and our relationship had the potential for failure from the beginning, because only one of us was actually in a truthful (truthful; pertaining to following God's word from the Bible) relationship with the Lord. In defense of my former wife, I must say that she is a good person to others and as a parent her love was unconditional to her two daughters. But as a wife she rejected God's word when it came to our marriage. And God says that when someone who is married to you walks away, your course of action is to allow it, when they are an unbeliever.
1 Corinthians 7: 12-15 And unto the married I command, yet not I, but the Lord, Let not the wife depart from her husband: 11 But and if she depart, let her remain unmarried, or be reconciled to her husband: and let not the husband put away his wife. 12 But to the rest speak I, not the Lord: If any brother has a wife that believes not, and she be pleased to dwell with him, let him not put her away. 13 And the woman which has a husband that believes not, and if he be pleased to dwell with her, let her not leave him. 14 For the unbelieving husband is sanctified by the wife, and the unbelieving wife is sanctified by the husband: else were your children unclean; but now are they holy. 15 But if the unbelieving depart, let him depart. A brother or a sister is not under bondage in such cases: but God has called us to peace. 16 For what do you know, O wife, whether you shall save your husband? or how do you know, O man, whether you shall save your wife?
              Some might ask, what qualifies me to say that she is an unbeliever? My answer to that would be the Word. The Holy Bible clearly defines who God loves and whom he considers his children. And I'm not saying that my wife is separated from ever having a honest relationship with the Lord. However today she is in a deceitful relationship with God, because she rejects his counsel (The Bible) and chooses her emotions and feelings above anything. The choices she has been making for 7 years with me are absolutely against God's will in marriage. I loved her unconditionally, so i continually tried to give her grace, on all her contentions with me. Obviously i failed her also, because i got mad and said hurtful things in our arguments. Which i repented of and asked her and God for forgiveness, and worked to always improve by asking the Lord to divinely change my heart. But an unbeliever refuses to accept responsibility for their actions and continues to focus on their feelings, rather than surrender to God's choice of direction for them. Without putting our personal lives out in cyber space, I will reveal some Scriptures that define who God loves and challenge the reader to examine where their heart is with his Word.
             I'm going to omit the Scriptures about marriage, but these can be found on this website in the Secret legend Scripture guide book. The following Scriptures are a foundation for anyone's relationship with God. When a person surrenders to these, they will unlock the door to a personal relationship with God. 
John 14:24 King James Version (KJV)
24 He that loves me not keeps not my sayings: and the word which you hear is not mine, but the Father's which has sent me.
Hebrews 11:6 King James Version (KJV)
6 But without faith it is impossible to please him: for he that comes to God must believe that he is, and that he is a re-warder of them that diligently seek him.
Romans 10:17 King James Version (KJV)
17 So then faith comes by hearing, and hearing by the word of God.
1 John 5 King James Version (KJV)
5 Whosoever believes that Jesus is the Christ is born of God: and every one that loves him that begat loves him also that is begotten of him.
2 By this we know that we love the children of God, when we love God, and keep his commandments.
3 For this is the love of God, that we keep his commandments: and his commandments are not grievous.
John 14:21 King James Version (KJV)
21 He that has my commandments, and keeps them, he it is that loves me: and he that loves me shall be loved of my Father, and I will love him, and will manifest myself to him.
Psalm 25:14 King James Version (KJV) 14 The secret of the Lord is with them that fear him; and he will shew them his covenant.
1 John 2:4-6 King James Version (KJV)
4 He that says, I know him, and keeps not his commandments, is a liar, and the truth is not in him.
5 But whoever keeps his word, in him verily is the love of God perfected: hereby know we that we are in him.
6 He that says he abides in him ought himself also so to walk, even as he walked.
John 14:23 King James Version (KJV)
23 Jesus answered and said unto him, If a man love me, he will keep my words: and my Father will love him, and we will come unto him, and make our abode with him.
John 8:47 King James Version (KJV) 47 He that is of God hears God's words:
you therefore hear them not, because you are not of God.
1 John 1:6 King James Version (KJV)
6 If we say that we have fellowship with him, and walk in darkness, we lie, and do not the truth:
1 John 3:24 New Living Translation (NLT)
24 Those who obey God’s commandments remain in fellowship with him, and he with them. And we know he lives in us because the Spirit he gave us lives in us.
1 John 5:4-5 New King James Version (NKJV) 4 For whatever is born of God overcomes the world. And this is the victory that has overcome the world, our faith. 5 Who is he who overcomes the world, but he who believes that Jesus is the Son of God?
John 4:24 King James Version (KJV)
24 God is a Spirit: and they that worship him must worship him in spirit and in truth.
1 John 4:6-9 King James Version (KJV) 6 We are of God: he that knows God hears us; he that is not of God hears us not. Hereby know we the spirit of truth, and the spirit of error.
7 Beloved, let us love one another: for love is of God; and every one that loves is born of God, and knows God.
8 He that loves not knows not God; for God is love.
9 In this was manifested the love of God toward us, because that God sent his only begotten Son into the world, that we might live through him.
Matthew 6:14-15 King James Version (KJV) 14 For if you forgive men their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you:
15 But if you forgive not men their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses.
Mark 11:26 King James Version (KJV)
26 But if you do not forgive, neither will your Father which is in heaven forgive your trespasses.
Matthew 22:36-40 King James Version (KJV)
36 Master, which is the great commandment in the law?
37 Jesus said unto him, you shall love the Lord thy God with all thy heart,
and with all your soul, and with all your mind.
38 This is the first and great commandment.
39 And the second is like unto it, you shall love your neighbor as yourself.
40 On these two commandments hang all the law and the prophets.
In conclusion of ALL these Scriptures, relating to my wife in marriage, is that she rejected all this.
             In the end, I felt sad, then betrayed, angry, and ultimately was very hurt. However when i compare my pain to what Jesus did for me, in paying for my sins on the cross, then i realized i must and will forgive her. My Lord had nails in his feet and hands after a massive beat down, and said;
Luke 23:34 King James Version (KJV)
34 Then said Jesus, Father, forgive them; for they know not what they do.
And they parted his raiment, and cast lots.
I'm even ashamed at my original anger towards my x, as i reflect on how truly blessed I am, to be allowed a relationship with the King Jesus on a personal intimate way. When i was walking up a long hill yesterday, I realized that if my life is going to last forever, then why should i waste my energy on something i am powerless to change, which is the past. So i will forgive her, and will ask for his Divine power, through the Holy Spirit in prayer, to accomplish this to its full potential. Another gift afforded to my unworthy self by God's grace in giving me life, love and truth through his Son.
2 Peter 1:3-6 King James Version (KJV)
3 According as his divine power has given unto us all things that pertain unto life and godliness, through the knowledge of him that has called us to glory and virtue:
4 Whereby are given unto us exceeding great and precious promises:
that by these you might be partakers of the divine nature,
having escaped the corruption that is in the world through lust.
           Not wishing to bore the reader with this story, allow me to conclude what God has been doing, during the last few weeks of this Drama in my life, with a brief summary, which i might elaborate on later;
1 Seriously hooked up with RIPTIDE sports bushings and their heart felt donation of product and extras.
2 Met Troy Churchill, a master fabricator of Skateboard decks.
3 Given an invitation to do a Skate Clinic for emotionally handicapped kids 3rd grade through high school.
4 Was put in touch with someone on fire for Jesus, who teaches Skogging, this is Skate and Jog combined.
This is an awesome platform for many of my future Clinics, and tentatively we will be getting together, so i can expand my knowledge for skate Clinics.
5 Had a nice donation of pads for the Skate Ministry by Strong Tower board Supply Skate Shop.
6 My parents bought me a nice 2001 XL150 Ford truck with low miles from a friend of theirs and it has a sweet pop top camper on it. So now i have a much better way to transport the goods for the skate ministry.
7 Private Fund raiser sales of Custom Skateboards, to Support this ministry has been excellent.
8 And the Lord gave me perfect timing to meet Troy Churchill when he was cleaning out his garage of Skateboard product. Totally unreal what i was hooked up with for the Ministry.
             Well that's it for today peoples. Thank you to everyone who is in my life, including any and all visitors. I pray God's blessing's to you all, in the name of King Jesus Christ, who rules of the Universe by the Father God's command! WORD!

                This BLOG is dedicated to Jesus Christ whom I try to faithfully serve. My original intention for writing here, was to be a voice for the King, to anyone interested in seeing God's hand in the development of this ministry. And I've tried to follow this guideline of my original intentions. Yet today, I have an overflowing of thoughts and experience, that I believe is of more value, than anything I've written.
                And my story relates to making a choice to live with the King Jesus, or to deceive oneself with feelings and emotions from the heart. The Bible says this about our hearts; "The heart is deceitful above all things and desperately wicked." So when you live for what you feel and not what God says in the Bible, you are susceptible to making huge mistakes. Obviously I've played the fool at times on my journey through life, but God's divine hand of physical discipline (Perfect timing of pain in my life), and the conviction of my conscience has been a blessing to steer me straight. Reading the Bible has been the major component of developing a Conscience for the mistakes I've made. What the world can't see, is the change in a persons heart and more personally mine, which the Lord can accomplish through his gift of the Holy Spirit. Everyone's heart has the potential for God's love to fill their hearts, when they surrender their will to God, by at least trying to listen to the Word of the Bible.
                So the Holy Spirit is the Good news about the Bible, and a gift of this is; "May you experience the love of God, though it is so great you will never fully understand it, but then you will be filled with the life and power that comes from God" The Holy Spirit is a promise from the Bible to those who seek it by faith, with his love being a part of it. In all actuality God is love. The Bible says; "God is love and all who live in God, live in love" The other part of the promise is that you will also be baptized with Fire! John the Baptist said this about Jesus; There is one mightier than me who's sandals I am not worthy to untie, he will Baptize you with the Holy Spirit and Fire".
                Well today is a bittersweet day for me. God has removed the Fire from my life. It pains me to say that my wife of the past 7 years has decided to live for herself. She is a wonderful person, but incapable of being a wife according to God's will. I have no harsh words for her, only that she refused the Lord's Truth in our marriage. Only the people you love can really hurt you deeply, and I am guilty of it as well. The difference between us, is that I was able to forgive her actions through Christ and she couldn't forgive my frustration with her contentiousness, which could of been avoided if we both submitted to Jesus. I am grateful for her having been in my life, as she was the Fire that molded me to become a better person. I use to swear, when my buttons were pushed, and when i thought something was unfair. I can truly say that through her contentions, i became spiritually strong in controlling my emotions and words. I thank God for her, and am sad that she can't let go of the past. This part of the story brings me to the unfolding of a monumental truth, for those who can receive it.
               A relationship with God, can be mirrored to a marriage. People say they have God, when they go to the building or a structure. But the Bible says God doesn't live in the building; "God that made the world and all things in this, lives not in buildings made by mans hand." Church is the Body of believers together. More importantly is that God wants a personal, intimate relationship with us. This is achieved  when we seek him, praise him, listen to him, worship him, share our thoughts and feelings with him. The number one commandment is to; "love the Lord with all your heart, strength, and mind". So just because you go to the building, doesn't really mean anything, if your heart isn't right (In touch) with God. And in a marriage when one party just shows up at the home, day after day, without a desire for fellowship, and friendship and intimacy, then it really isn't a marriage anymore.
               I never fully understood the Scripture that says;If an unbelieving person departs, let them depart, a brother or sister is no longer in marriage, for we have been called to peace".
However this has been crystal clear, on what has unfolded in my life today.
So even though I'm sorta heart broke, I must trust the Lord in what has happened in my life. And to be completely real, my soon to be former wife, had little to no respect for the ministry I've been called to serve. I gave her grace on ignoring this, but her actions of coming home with no love, prompted me to address the situation, which has brought me to being a single man again. But i will not compromise what I believe God wants me to do. So when i saw her disenchantment of my service and love, for the Lord, I addressed it. Even though I will always love the woman who was a blessing to be with, even though torturous at times. But failing God in this ministry is not an option. I tried my best to love her as Christ loved me, but she was unable to receive it, because she chose to let her feelings and emotions be the driving force in her life, instead of trusting God's word, by a accepting and surrendering to his will. I know how hard this can be to implement, so I do forgive her unconditionally.
               With all that said, I hope my honesty can touch one couple, that will make the decision to put God, in the forefront of their lives. It takes more than going to the home, to make a marriage. It takes Love; Love is patient and kind, love is not jealous boastful , proud or rude, Love does not demand or insist on its own way. Love is not resentful or irritable. It keeps no record of wrong, and rejoices when truth wins out. Love never gives up, endures all things and is hopeful in all situations.
And I challenge everyone, who thinks they have God, to ask themselves, if this is due to a visit to the building, or is it because they have a personal loving relationship with Jesus Christ. How do you get faith one might ask; "Faith comes from listening to the Good news, the Good news about Christ"